Chapter 13
Apraham Hoja’s
Personal Testimony
“The grace of
God reached me, by which grace I am what I am” (I Corinthians 15:10)
The Lord fulfilled a
marvelous work of grace in my heart, bestowing me a life which is
blessed beyond measure. This can neither be purchased at any price nor
be expressed by mortal tongue. For this marvelous fulfillment in my
life I praise and bless the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit
forever. He totally separated me from the world, knitted my heart to
himself and filled me with all-surpassing peace and joy. It is
impossible to describe my sixty-eight years of spiritual life and
experience with my God. All glory and praise be to him! I pray that
this testimony will be a blessing to my readers. It is with this
purpose that I am recording a few of the highlights.
My birth was in
January, 1855, in the well-known city of Aintab. My father’s name was
Asdwazadur (translated, ‘Gift of God’). He was a well-known school
teacher. His devoted allegiance was to the Lusavorjagan Armenian
Apostolic Church. He loved his church and the psalms and rituals sung
there. But above all, he loved the interpretation of God’s Word
whenever it happened to be given. He had a large number of books and
much devotional literature. He was a person known to have a positive
influence in the church. He was looked upon as a man of God. People
would frequently come to him with a list of requests for prayer,
particularly for their sick. There was a common belief at the time that
if a man like my father would spend a night at the house of a sick
person the sick one would receive healing. This must have been his gift.
Because of this belief, my father often had to be away from home! His
mission was to help others and pray for the healing of the sick. My
father had an uncle whose name was Levon Krikorian. He was a person of
great influence in Aintab because of his wealth and position. My
mother’s name was Manushak (translated, ‘Carnation’). She was an only
child, so was my father. But they made up for it in their marriage.
Their wedding was a big and happy event. God blessed them with twelve
children, ten sons and two daughters. The first son died shortly after
birth, which was fairly common in those days. The two daughters were
Nouritsa and Anna. My father was a man of perseverant prayer. Whenever
the Lord’s Supper was going to be commemorated, he gave himself to
fasting and prayer the day before. He built a secluded place in our
basement, which I called his ‘grotto’. He would retreat there, kneel on
a straw mat and spend the whole day in prayer, often with tears. Those
in the house who overheard him could not restrain their emotions either,
and joined him in the spirit of prayer, also with tears.
When the American
Congregational missionaries reached Aintab and proclaimed the Good News
of Christ, my father was among the first to accept their message. His
soul was set on fire when he came into touch with the teaching of the
Bible. He hardly ever missed the midweek prayer meeting. He would also
attend any special service at the church. He grew very rapidly in his
new faith. Shortly after this life-changing encounter, he was appointed
as a teacher at the school which had been started by the New England
missionaries. His teaching skills proved to be very effective and he
came to be known as one of the best teachers. Bible and Theology were
his favorite subjects. Training students in this area brought him great
respect and also much joy.
If anyone were to
ask me about my mother and her life, I would say that in my view she
stood out as a unique Christian woman. She was truly a spiritual
mother, entirely yielded to Jesus Christ and full of faith, a modest
woman who would fit the description in I Peter 3:3-5: “Let not yours
be the outward adorning with braiding of hair, decoration of gold, and
wearing of fine clothing, but let it be the hidden person of the heart
with the imperishable jewel of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s
sight is very precious. So once the holy women who hoped in God used to
adorn themselves and were submissive to their husbands…” She never
allowed any fancy or showy dress to enter the house, and did not favor
any item of decorative nature. She repeatedly remarked, “Whenever
fashion comes into a house, the blessing of God goes out!” She seldom
served meat at our meals and always cautioned against festive activity.
She called highly-seasoned food a lustful habit. She never allowed a
guest to smoke in her house. She never served coffee, tea or sweet
cakes. Naturally, alcoholic beverages were excluded.
My mother would
often remark, “I am in the wrong world; this is not my home. My place
is elsewhere.” With prayer and tears she would plead God to take her
out of this world. Prayer was her most delightful exercise. No matter
what hour of the day I returned home I found her on her knees, given to
concentrated prayer. She always prayed with a loud voice. She cried
until her eyes were red. Her longing was to depart and be with Christ
‘which is far better’. She slept very little at night and
whenever I woke, I saw her on her knees praying.
During my childhood
I was sent to a flour mill to work at night. The place was extremely
cold and my body trembled with chills throughout the night. I was
seized with excruciating colic, so the folks at the mill had to give me
some medication. The medicine they resorted to was a spoonful of
whiskey. When my mother learned of it, she admonished me by saying, “My
son, no matter what your condition is—colic, sickness or some other
distress—even if you are at the point of death, tough it out and never
again let liquor touch your lips.” Both father and mother cautioned all
of us boys not to set foot in coffee houses. They would say, “Keep your
eyes from looking into those places. Such places are gateways to hell.
When you pass by them, turn your face the other way. Never let it be
said of you that you took a good look at what was going on in those
centers of leisure.” My father was a person of meager income. However,
whatever he earned he committed it to God with a special prayer that God
would bless what he had allowed him to earn. The scanty provision which
we enjoyed was not only ample to meet our needs, but also enough to lay
money aside. My parents considered family worship a most important
function of daily life. They would never neglect it. Even during our
family worship my mother’s face was saturated with tears. She was
always touched in these times of reading God’s Word and prayer.
My mother told us
that it was better not to play with other children in the neighborhood,
lest we hear bad language. She was very strict about this. She
refrained from frequent visits to neighbors for fear of being caught in
idle words or gossip. She often remarked, “I fear more the company of a
few women than standing before an executioner. I cannot conform to
their ways.” She was a woman truly separated from the world. There was
no trace of love for the world in her soul. One day after a long time
of prayer, her countenance radiant with heavenly light, mother said with
great joy, “My son, I have good news for you. It has been revealed to
me that in the near future I shall move out of this present world.”
Strangely, from that day on, she ceased her weeping and crying.
Instead, an attitude of joyful praise took over. Singing spiritual
hymns were her constant expression. Two months after this vision, she
breathed her last. She closed her eyes to this world, which she had not
liked. She opened them in that heavenly realm for which she had
intensely longed. The love I had for my mother far surpassed all other
love, except of course, for my Lord. The greatest influence upon my
life came from my mother. I was eighteen when she died.
Six years earlier
the Lord had come into my life. This invigorating text made a deep
impression on me at the time: “And he died for all, that those who
live might live no longer for themselves but for him who for their sake
died and was raised” ( II Corinthians 5:15). The Lord Jesus Christ
became precious to me through this verse. He disclosed himself in an
ineffable way, which is beyond the power of my pen to describe. From
that time on, Christianity was not a faith inherited from my godly
mother. I now enjoyed a personal and living relationship with my
Savior. God’s truth became my own treasure. Christ was so valuable to me
that I often wondered whether there was another living person who loved
him as wholeheartedly with soul and mind, and was as fascinated with
him, as I was. I can truthfully bear witness that my call to God
through this Scripture was as real and clear to my heart as the call to
Abraham was in the life of the old patriarch.
One Sunday morning I
stood before six hundred Sunday school children. I read the verse just
quoted and then I went on to speak to them. “Listen to me, young
friends. From this day on, I have turned over my whole being and all my
possessions to Jesus Christ. I shall live for him alone.” God’s work
in my life and the testimony with which I expressed it was not something
I took lightly. To me, it was an unforgettable experience. The Lord
Jesus Christ worked in my heart in such a deep way that all fear and
doubt evaporated.
During my childhood
years I had memorized the three chapters of the Sermon on the Mount from
the Gospel of Matthew (five through seven). Following my conversion the
verse which influenced me most was Matthew 6:24: “No one can
serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other,
or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot
serve God and mammon.” Christ’s utterance ‘you cannot’ made
a complete and profound impression on my life. It gave me a new
direction for my earthly life. This unforgettable experience grew
stronger and stronger as the days went by. There are numerous valuable
passages in God’s Word, but these two words took possession of my whole
existence.
In 1880, a pressing
urge gripped my heart. An extraordinary power was leading me to the
work of evangelism all the way up in Harput at the source of the
Euphrates River. In obedience I left Aintab and departed for Harput.
Harput was completely inhabited by Armenians. Among the many churches
and schools was also Harput College, established by the Congregational
missionaries. There were several evangelical churches in the wider
area. God opened my way to visit one church after another and proclaim
the Good News of his Son. My message was quite direct: “You have
misunderstood Christianity; you are serving two masters. This is
impossible. Do not be deceived. You cannot be the servant of two
masters. Wake up!” I could sense that my heart was on fire for God.
The Lord showed me that I must avoid all talk of religious politics in
my messages. I should not be preaching ethical culture. The Lord gave
me strength to proclaim the uncompromising, unadulterated truth of his
Gospel.
One of God’s notable
acts in my life was to allow a serious sickness to grip me for a period
of two years. During this time, I became an invalid. The doctors
offered no hope for recovery. But to the astonishment of many, my Lord
raised me up. People started calling me Lazarus. The time of my
convalescence was spent in Jibin. There I met St. Minas. He was a
totally consecrated believer in Christ, one who was worthy of the title
‘holy’. In the whole area villagers and townspeople looked at him as a
man of God. His life not only influenced me most positively, but also
gave me true purpose and direction. I joined ranks with him, spending
night after night together in song and prayer. Anyone hearing him pray
would be moved to tears. To utter a frivolous word or act in any sinful
manner before him would bring tears to his eyes and deep lamentation to
his soul.
After my mother’s
death, my heart was set on fire for God. As a result I secluded myself
in a cave for two days. No one knew where I was. There in the secrecy
of my cloister I wept and cried unto the Lord. I wrote a solemn contract
of twenty-four paragraphs, entitled, ‘My Covenant with God’. I signed
this covenant in an absolutely unforgettable and indisputable
surrender. The gist of it was to obey God the Father to the utmost till
death, to surrender thoroughly to his Son and depend on the Holy Spirit
once and for all. How thankful I am to God that to this day he has
cared for me and protected me by his daily presence and grace!
Otherwise, I would not have had the strength to continue my earthly
pilgrimage.
Reference to a
lesson of great value which I learned during this period is apropos. At
the time I was in a town called Abez; hundreds repented and were
converted. The scene before me was so strange and other-worldly that it
seemed like heaven on earth. How sad I am to confess that at this
juncture, to my shock and sorrow, that cursed sin—spiritual
pride—manifested its ugly head in me. Although Satan was powerless to
drag me back to the world, by this sin he sought to ruin and overcome
me. God saw my wretched condition and knew that I was in danger. To
help me see myself and be raised from the pit into which I had fallen He
brought me to a prison experience. The outer cause of this imprisonment
was one thing; the inner cause an entirely different one. I knew it.
The Lord was seeking to cleanse and purge me of that awful spiritual
pride. The price of this pride was very costly. For long hours I wept,
with my tears falling on the ground. Those lamentations, confessions
and mortifications were God’s grace working in me. I bless his name for
it. By this the Lord taught me that I should constantly be on guard
with utmost caution against the sin of spiritual pride. As a result my
heart was overwhelmed with an inner desire that I should not work among
those who loved me, but among those who mocked and despised me.
I mentioned that the
external outlook of my imprisonment was different than the internal
aspect. The actuality was that in my field of labor I preached and
proclaimed to the Muslims that if they did not believe in Christ there
was no salvation for them. The Lord had given me extraordinary courage
and strength to put forward this truth to every Muslim I met. The
emphasis of my ministry was heard all around, ultimately taking me to
court. There once again the Lord enabled me to give a clear-cut
testimony in the presence of government officials. Humanly speaking, it
would have been unthinkable for me to be delivered alive from that
prison. As a matter of fact, I was gripped with a deep desire that if
it pleased the Lord I might endure martyrdom for him, for the Word of
God and the testimony of Jesus Christ. Oh! What a blessed privilege to
become a martyr for Christ! I longed for it, but I was denied this
privilege.
Finally, one of the
government spokesmen said, “We have been in this office for many years,
but we have never met a man of such strength and consuming passion. No
one has ever spoken as fearlessly regarding his faith as you have.”
By God’s grace, I found favor with a centurion and the governor. With
unbelievable reverence, they listened to God’s Word. I could clearly
detect that their aim was to set me free. Indeed, the Lord honored
their efforts and once again I became a free person through my Lord’s
intervention.
This was a valuable
schooling for me. The lessons taught by the Lord and the truths learned
were priceless. I cannot name them one by one, but the distinctive
truth came from Philippians 3:3: “For we are the true circumcision,
who worship God in spirit, and glory in Christ Jesus, and put no
confidence in the flesh.” May the Lord who taught me not to have
any confidence in the flesh be pleased to teach everyone who reads this
the same lesson. Your brother in the Lord, Apraham Levonian